Being a mom

Being a mom is the most exhausting, tiring, frustrating, and WONDERFUL thing I have experienced to date. Bryson has his days and nights mixed up. He's gone from breast feeding to breast milk in a bottle to being a formula baby. He couldn't quite latch on right away due to a tongue tie, so we began pumping and giving him breast milk in a bottle. At about 2 weeks old, he decided he'd start projectile vomiting the breast milk. So we moved on to formula - Similac Advanced. This gave our little one a HUGE amount of gas which made him quite the fuss pot. A call to the pediatritian and two samples later, we are now Enfamil GentleEase users. This seems to agree with him a bit better - but it's only been a few bottles, so we won't know for sure just yet. Keeping our fingers crossed!

So the past few weeks have been indescribable. I say this because I went through a bout of the baby blues when he was first born - crying at everything and anything and nothing at all. I went through a fussy, gassy, not wanting to take to the boob baby. I went through countless gas smiles and tons of adorable little noises as he eats. I went through sleepless nights which led to sleep deprivation. I went through the most amazing thing ever - and love my son more than words can say.

Welcome Bryson

Bryson Michael Cooke was born on March 4th at 5:05pm weighing in at 9 pounds 5 ounces and 22 inches long! The labor lasted about 9 hours with 45 minutes of pushing. I got an epidural and was SO glad I did!! More to come when time allows...

Countdown - 1 hour

Well this is it. It's been a few days since my last blog, and a lot has happened. After the midwife changed her mind TWICE on us regarding induction, we switched to a different doctor in the practice. The result - we are being induced this morning (March 4, 2010) at 6:00 am. I am a bit nervous, a lot excited, and 100% ready. I had a hard time getting sleep last night (although J said I was snoring quite a bit). Amazingly, I am wide awake and rearing to go. We are going to stop at Dunkin Donuts on the way to get a nice bagel with cream cheese and a cup of coffee before our big day. I never thought this day would come, but we are going to finally meet our boy today. Here is to a quick, easy, and eventless labor and delivery :)

Lack of a voice and information

I haven't had my normal voice for 3 days now. It is horrible - it hurts and I sound horrible. Not fun for someone who enjoys talking. I also have a lack of information. We were supposed to find out if I'd be induced today. Unfortunately, the midwife didn't e-mail the doctor until yesterday and hasn't heard back yet. So that leaves us where we have been - waiting and in the middle of the unknown. Quite frustrating - but we've just decided we can only wait - Bryson will come when he is ready to come and that is that.

Induction Thoughts

I want to be induced. It would be so nice to just KNOW that OK - he is not coming any later than this date. It would help me mentally and maybe even physically. It would help me fully prepare at work and let me tell my parents when to plan on being up here for the birth of their grandson. But my midwife will not induce for convenience. She says the baby knows when he's ready to come out and I need to think like a mother. This statement bothers me. I believe I am thinking like a mother with the planning I am trying to accomplish. I am not asking to be induced at 35 or 36 or 37 weeks. All I want is to know - OK - I've been pregnant for 40 weeks - on March 3rd if Bry Bry isn't here, we will induce you. But no - that doesn't look like it's going to happen. The best I could get is that if he's not here by March 10th (one week past my due date) that they will induce then for medical reasons.

I am just so frustrated. What does it mean to "think like a mother". I am officially a mother - and this is how I am thinking - so don't you think that is "thinking like a mother"???? Perhaps I'm just over this pregnancy thing - I'm ready for Bryson to join the family - I'm ready to have my son.

Doctor's Appointment

We had our 35 week Drs appointment this morning. Bryson is doing amazing! This dr. is guesstimating his weight to be around 6 pounds right now - and thinks he'll be around 7 pounds when he is born. Different from the last doctor - but I guess we will find out when he comes out! His heart beat was 158 bpm - and I lost 2 pounds (definitely water weight!) All in all - things are going perfectly and I couldn't ask for more.

Come on Bry Bry - we are ready to meet you :)

And the countdown continues

6 weeks left of being pregnant! It's bittersweet actually. I have not really enjoyed being pregnant like I thought I would - but love feeling him squirm around inside of me. Seeing the little kicks and punches makes me laugh. That being said - I am SO HAPPY and EXCITED to meet this little guy. We are all set for the most part - swing set up - stroller put together - nursery in order. All we need is our Bryson Michael to join the family. 6 weeks to go little man.