Lack of a voice and information

I haven't had my normal voice for 3 days now. It is horrible - it hurts and I sound horrible. Not fun for someone who enjoys talking. I also have a lack of information. We were supposed to find out if I'd be induced today. Unfortunately, the midwife didn't e-mail the doctor until yesterday and hasn't heard back yet. So that leaves us where we have been - waiting and in the middle of the unknown. Quite frustrating - but we've just decided we can only wait - Bryson will come when he is ready to come and that is that.

Induction Thoughts

I want to be induced. It would be so nice to just KNOW that OK - he is not coming any later than this date. It would help me mentally and maybe even physically. It would help me fully prepare at work and let me tell my parents when to plan on being up here for the birth of their grandson. But my midwife will not induce for convenience. She says the baby knows when he's ready to come out and I need to think like a mother. This statement bothers me. I believe I am thinking like a mother with the planning I am trying to accomplish. I am not asking to be induced at 35 or 36 or 37 weeks. All I want is to know - OK - I've been pregnant for 40 weeks - on March 3rd if Bry Bry isn't here, we will induce you. But no - that doesn't look like it's going to happen. The best I could get is that if he's not here by March 10th (one week past my due date) that they will induce then for medical reasons.

I am just so frustrated. What does it mean to "think like a mother". I am officially a mother - and this is how I am thinking - so don't you think that is "thinking like a mother"???? Perhaps I'm just over this pregnancy thing - I'm ready for Bryson to join the family - I'm ready to have my son.

Doctor's Appointment

We had our 35 week Drs appointment this morning. Bryson is doing amazing! This dr. is guesstimating his weight to be around 6 pounds right now - and thinks he'll be around 7 pounds when he is born. Different from the last doctor - but I guess we will find out when he comes out! His heart beat was 158 bpm - and I lost 2 pounds (definitely water weight!) All in all - things are going perfectly and I couldn't ask for more.

Come on Bry Bry - we are ready to meet you :)

And the countdown continues

6 weeks left of being pregnant! It's bittersweet actually. I have not really enjoyed being pregnant like I thought I would - but love feeling him squirm around inside of me. Seeing the little kicks and punches makes me laugh. That being said - I am SO HAPPY and EXCITED to meet this little guy. We are all set for the most part - swing set up - stroller put together - nursery in order. All we need is our Bryson Michael to join the family. 6 weeks to go little man.

Yoga, Kicks, and the Countdown Begins!

For anyone out there who is battling the backaches of pregnancy (which can be quite painful as we all know) I highly suggest prenatal Yoga. For a couple of weeks now the backpain has been near unbearable. I hadn't gone to my Yoga class in awhile, so I decided to try it again last night to see if it would help. I feel like a whole new person today! My backache is gone (for the time being) and I feel more energized. I slept much better last night too! So ladies - PRENATAL YOGA!!!

On the kicking front, B is an active little boy today. I wonder if it is the cold weather (30 degrees in Florida?!) Whatever it is, it's nice to feel because I know he is doing OK in there. Kick away little boy - kick away.

Lastly - we are in the beginnings of the final countdown (queue Europe's final countdown song lol). Tomorrow - 8 weeks and counting until we meet our boy. I am so excited for that day I am just praying these next few weeks fly by. I should start working from home the beginning of February (just waiting on the final approval) and then before we know it he will be here! We are all set for him. His nursery was finished over the weekend - all we have left to do is push him out! Well - and a few other things like kid proof the house, pack my hospital bag, get the animals used to their tails being pulled - you know - the usual :)

Oh happy day!

It's amazing what a breathing treatment for asthma and a good nights sleep will do for you! Today, I am in a better mood than I have been in days. I feel blessed to be pregnant and happy to have gotten a good night's sleep. I think it is all due to the breathing treatment I got. Apparently, most of the day Sunday and yesterday in the morning, I was in the throws of an asthma attack. I used the albuterol inhaler - which made things better for a couple of hours - but then I'd have to use it again. Being afraid what the side effects of the meds would be on Bryson, I called up my mid-wife yesterday. She immediately sent me for a breathing treatment. OH MAN what a difference! I could get a full breath of air. And I still can! I think that is what helped me sleep through the night (with the exception of the three potty breaks) - but I fell right back asleep! I just wonder if I would have had this treatment earlier in the pregnancy if I would have enjoyed it that much more.

That being said - I am loving feeling Bryson move and kick. It was amazing when J finally felt him move. He loves when she reads to him - he starts moving around and kicking. I think that is going to wind up being a favorite pasttime between those two. Mama J's reading time :) She can do that in the rocking chair she is currently staining (picture included in this post!)

Little by little we are getting our home ready for our baby. J has been staining and going through drawers. I have been trying to clean - and tonight I will complete the drawer empty-fest and then J can move the armoir into Bry's room. Once that piece of furniture is in there, I can start organizing his clothes and getting his room set up - along with the cat's new area. Sometimes I feel like I can't do a lot with this belly and all - but I'm trying to do what I can to help get ready. I think one thing I will do this week is getting all of the outlet plugs into the open outlets and cleaning off old stuffed animals (if that is possible!)

All in all - this is a very happy time. I am so anxious and exciting to meet our little one. We are just about 10 weeks away max from seeing his tiny fingers and toes. Ah - the joys of a great night's sleep :)

Almost 29 Weeks and Blurry

So the past few days, my vision has been horrendous. Things either look blurry or out of focus or just long/distorted. I called up the midwife today and she recommended I get an appointment with my Optometrist today. So I am now waiting to head over there to see what in the hell is going on with the eyes of mine. I'm hoping that the pregnancy has just changed my prescription - it's just so odd how it happened so suddenly. I'll provide an update after the appointment later.

Other than that, things are status quo. I'm in the third trimester - very uncomfortable - sometimes feel like I have a bowling ball in my crotch. But all in all believe things are going well. I feel Bryson move quite often - which is reassuring. I just can't wait to meet him. Little by little we are getting things done around the house. Kitchen has been cleaned and a spot has been made for bottles/breast feeding materials. The crib and changing table have been put together and our rocking chair has come in. We got the gate up in the cats room - and realized we need professional help in installing a gate on the stairs. The last thing we want is shoddy work done on the stair baby gate - to me, that is the most important one as it is the one that keeps Mr. B safe.